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Another random thought of the day. After watching a video posted by one of the Youtuber on how she handles her bad days, makes me think that, you know, it is true that us, humans, have our bad days. Just random bad days without reasons. You don't actually know why you feel bad, you just  feel bad. Without legit reasons. Weird? Yes. I guess, when you are moving so fast in your daily routines, as in, wake up in the morning, hang out with friends, or go out to work then come back home, relax for bit then sleep and the routine repeats. And your weekends are probably packed with hangouts and chill sessions, thus, missed the alone time. The time to recollect, to reflect. It is normal for us to feel that way. Sometimes it may also be affected by the social media where we see how "perfect" someone else's life is but come on, you don't know what has happened before the picture was taken, what was happening when the picture was taken and what happened after the picture ...

Do dreams come true? I mean, i have been watching so many YouTube videos lately and most of the videos I've watched talk about dreams coming true and etc. This makes me wonder if dreams do really come true? I mean, people don't just make it up right? Probably because the dreams that i have are not here yet? I don't know. I don't actually know what are my exact dreams. This is the same as the book, The Secret telling us the how powerful our mind is and etc. I would say it is pretty much true but to see things happen, things that you want to happen, takes time. That's where patience comes in. What i need to do now is to come up with what are my exact dreams. I mean, i have them but they are pretty vague. I need to make them as clear as possible so i know where to go next. Just got my results few days ago and i am legit happy and excited bout it! I expected worse but who knows the results came out better than expected! Very near to First class if i didn't scr...

Someone has recently confessed his feelings towards me but sadly i couldn't return his feelings as I always see him as a best friend. A friend that i can truly open up to and he was always there for me. I used a few days, trying to figure out my true feelings and I only like him as a friend and i feel we couldn't be more than that. I group people. If that makes sense. People that i can be really close with and still be friends and people that i want to be with. I am devastated that I had to tell him the truth and i wish we could still go back to normal, but that is nearly impossible. How can he see you differently now? He will see you as the girl who rejected him. Could we actually back to besties? I hope, i wish. I really do hope we can go back to where we were. I really do. Feelings cannot be controlled and forced. How i wish i could but honestly, it is also impossible to do that. It is annoying how things just don't go your way. It takes 2 person to click and form...

Do you ever feel like you don't belong in this world? Like everything you do is somehow just not right, just wrong? Nothing is moving into the right direction now. Feel so aimless, worthless that I can't do anything to help. I can blame, blame on so many things but would that solve anything? I've learned not to blame. What is the point anyway? The roller coaster ride of life - a never ending route. Will I ever have a calm ride in life? I don't think so. Challenges - one after another. Seems like I magnet all these challenges. I should stop thinking bout these and move on. No point thinking when I can't solve anything. At all. I want to disappear. Until everything is back to normal. But, what is normal? Nothing is normal in my life. Never have, never been, never will. Guess, I just need to embrace what I'm given. Despite the challenges, I am grateful. I am blessed. What I have now, is actually better than many people. Many, many people of...

So my sisters are currently all the way in Johor leaving Mark and I at home. Hmm. I thought of going to the mall just now and i realised it's Saturday.. I don't usually go to the mall during weekends cause it is going to be so packed and since I am free during weekdays, so why not wait? haha. Feel like going out but i can't just leave Mark at home alone.. >< AH well. Today has been pretty productive as I applied a few programs online and let's just see what happens. And i worked out at home, did some body weight routines. Feel so good after working out actually. Best feels. *snacking on cheese strips haha* Been feeling pretty unwell, emotionally and mentally- i couldn't even finish a movie! That is very unlikely of me not finishing a movie, you know. At first i thought it'll be pretty dreadful to be home alone and don't know what to do with life and etc. But tomorrow I am going to move things from my Semenyih house like finally and then fetch my fr...

You know when you have that moment where you just hate every single part of your body? - only apply to girls, i think. I had that this afternoon where i just came out from the shower, and looked in the mirror, and i hated everything, from the tip of my hair to my toes. omg. *never put the mirror next to the window-natural lighting sucks sometimes* It sucks as you can see everything so damn clearly. All the pimples you have on ur face, the blackheads on ur nose, the split ends of your hair and etc. You can just point out every single flaw you see and then ruin your mood for the day. I was there standing in front of the mirror hating the fats on my arms, my tummy, my thighs, well, basically my whole body. Very very bad. It has been awhile since I've had this cause before this i was just too busy with activities and etc. Now, i am just too damn free which is bad. When a girl says she hates everything bout herself, it is true. Believe that. Me, a not so girly type of girl, i would sa...

I have been reading the book by Robin Sharma, The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari. Like finally i get to read this book. The book is seriously inspiring. I am only halfway through the book and i am taking it slow cause there's so much in the book that i want to digest. I realised, i see Winston Churchill's quote everywhere. In the library, so many in his book. Wow, i really need to find out who is this. His quotes are very motivational and inspirational.  One that i got from the book is "the price of greatness is responsibility over each of your thoughts". Control of our own mind is actually really important as it is the magnet to things that is happening, things that are going to happen in our lives. It is very similar to the book, Secret, where our mind controls the law of attraction. Whatever we think about, that is what is going to happen. To ensure great things to happen, first, control your mind to think positively. Not only that, learn from mistakes, take it as a l...