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Another random thought of the day. After watching a video posted by one of the Youtuber on how she handles her bad days, makes me think that, you know, it is true that us, humans, have our bad days. Just random bad days without reasons. You don't actually know why you feel bad, you just  feel bad. Without legit reasons. Weird? Yes. I guess, when you are moving so fast in your daily routines, as in, wake up in the morning, hang out with friends, or go out to work then come back home, relax for bit then sleep and the routine repeats. And your weekends are probably packed with hangouts and chill sessions, thus, missed the alone time. The time to recollect, to reflect. It is normal for us to feel that way. Sometimes it may also be affected by the social media where we see how "perfect" someone else's life is but come on, you don't know what has happened before the picture was taken, what was happening when the picture was taken and what happened after the picture

Do dreams come true? I mean, i have been watching so many YouTube videos lately and most of the videos I've watched talk about dreams coming true and etc. This makes me wonder if dreams do really come true? I mean, people don't just make it up right? Probably because the dreams that i have are not here yet? I don't know. I don't actually know what are my exact dreams. This is the same as the book, The Secret telling us the how powerful our mind is and etc. I would say it is pretty much true but to see things happen, things that you want to happen, takes time. That's where patience comes in. What i need to do now is to come up with what are my exact dreams. I mean, i have them but they are pretty vague. I need to make them as clear as possible so i know where to go next. Just got my results few days ago and i am legit happy and excited bout it! I expected worse but who knows the results came out better than expected! Very near to First class if i didn't scr

Someone has recently confessed his feelings towards me but sadly i couldn't return his feelings as I always see him as a best friend. A friend that i can truly open up to and he was always there for me. I used a few days, trying to figure out my true feelings and I only like him as a friend and i feel we couldn't be more than that. I group people. If that makes sense. People that i can be really close with and still be friends and people that i want to be with. I am devastated that I had to tell him the truth and i wish we could still go back to normal, but that is nearly impossible. How can he see you differently now? He will see you as the girl who rejected him. Could we actually back to besties? I hope, i wish. I really do hope we can go back to where we were. I really do. Feelings cannot be controlled and forced. How i wish i could but honestly, it is also impossible to do that. It is annoying how things just don't go your way. It takes 2 person to click and form

Do you ever feel like you don't belong in this world? Like everything you do is somehow just not right, just wrong? Nothing is moving into the right direction now. Feel so aimless, worthless that I can't do anything to help. I can blame, blame on so many things but would that solve anything? I've learned not to blame. What is the point anyway? The roller coaster ride of life - a never ending route. Will I ever have a calm ride in life? I don't think so. Challenges - one after another. Seems like I magnet all these challenges. I should stop thinking bout these and move on. No point thinking when I can't solve anything. At all. I want to disappear. Until everything is back to normal. But, what is normal? Nothing is normal in my life. Never have, never been, never will. Guess, I just need to embrace what I'm given. Despite the challenges, I am grateful. I am blessed. What I have now, is actually better than many people. Many, many people of

So my sisters are currently all the way in Johor leaving Mark and I at home. Hmm. I thought of going to the mall just now and i realised it's Saturday.. I don't usually go to the mall during weekends cause it is going to be so packed and since I am free during weekdays, so why not wait? haha. Feel like going out but i can't just leave Mark at home alone.. >< AH well. Today has been pretty productive as I applied a few programs online and let's just see what happens. And i worked out at home, did some body weight routines. Feel so good after working out actually. Best feels. *snacking on cheese strips haha* Been feeling pretty unwell, emotionally and mentally- i couldn't even finish a movie! That is very unlikely of me not finishing a movie, you know. At first i thought it'll be pretty dreadful to be home alone and don't know what to do with life and etc. But tomorrow I am going to move things from my Semenyih house like finally and then fetch my fr