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Why is she always confusing me. I was slowly opening myself to her but after what happened today made me curious, so curious that i don't even know if we are now friends anymore or back to ignoring mode. I really don't want the ignoring mode to happen but if that is what she chooses, i don't really mind cause i am already used to not having them around me anymore. So, it is back to the life without them. The thing i am confused about is, we chatted in whatsapp and everything seem so fine until i asked one question and she stopped replying me after seeing my message. Hmm. why? I don't even know. I know on Thursday night all of them hang out together and i asked if Aishah teased her and she said yes, but she ignored Aishah then Aishah stopped. Then when i asked, what she teased about, she stopped replying me already. I was like, hmm, why? Well, i didn't really care about it cause maybe she skipped my message. Then today at class, she sat with Aishah, well, i don't

Magic happens when you truly believe it. At first i don't believe magic, I mean, for many of us, magic means illusion but actually magic is more than that. It is more than just illusion, it is real. I read the book Secret and to see "Magic", we must be grateful for what we have. I have been writing 10 things i am grateful about everyday and that changes my life, not significantly, yet. But i believe one day, whatever i wished for will definitely come true because i appreciate, grateful for the things i have, things being given to me. I start to see things more clearly and being more and more appreciative now. I believe that as we start to appreciate things, magical things will happen, may not be significant at first but that's how great things start. Right? I am definitely going to continue writing and be more and more appreciative and grateful for everything that i have and cherish moments with the people i love even more than before. I love this moment, moment to

i guess i sort of learned something today from the blogs i follow which is not to post so much of your relationship on social media. I feel it is as if a hidden curse. LOL. i mean, 2 of the person i follow on blogger, one is Naomi and the other one is my friend. Both of them always post things on social medias showing how happy they are and etc. I feel that, that is not the way to express feelings to each other. It is beautifully portrayed in themingthing's recent videos. It is surreal. Everything in the video is so on point, so right. I am not really a social media type of person, so i hope we are safe from that.. haha Anyways, i am sorry baby for being such a bitch these few days. I really don't understand how you could stand my hot and cold temper. I realise my mistakes and i really would want to get rid of it. I just dunno what is happening to me. I think with all the stress and i think i am having PMS which leads to all these crazy roller coaster temper. I miss you wh

Finally, we are back, Hui Chee and I. I am loving it and i am happy for being with her when she needed someone to talk to. She really need someone to talk to now. Well, she is pretty confused with her own feelings. I seriously get her as i felt such way before. She was complaining on why is she feeling sad but she doesn't know it. She said she feels sad when she sees him. I waS like, you are sad because he doesn't like you back is it? She nodded. I so know her. haha. Not even kidding cause i know her. I know how she feels. It is not easy to forget the feelings/ the serious crush. Not easy but she has to understand what her feelings are telling her. Fully understand everything she feels cause if not, she will definitely suffer from the confusion and might deteriorate her relationship with her boyfriend. Her boyfriend loves her and treats her very well. And she might take that for granted and they are just too comfortable with each other i would say. Well, i can't blame tha