Need
Been pretty down lately because we have lost a close friend. Lost her. Not going down to the sappy sad story cause it is not mine to tell. I felt the effect, much more than I have expected to be. I am strong on some days but some days, I got so affected that I really need some positivity in my life to bring me back up. Work is not helping. I don't know what else to be honest.. So much has happened and still happening. I don't know how to feel. Not feeling like disappearing anymore after I have told everything stored deep down in my heart to my boyfriend. Now I am just solely affected by what has happened very recently. It was sad, angry, frustrated and everything negative. sigh. I don't really know how to get over this. Don't think I can though. I want to start something new. But what is? Don't think this is a right time to do so yet. I need to be more supportive. I need to be stronger. But sometimes, we have our limits right? sigh. I think I just need som