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 now, what is fulfilment. As a recruitment consultant, there are times that I will be speaking to high potential, tier A candidates, management consultants earning really , really big bucks and at times, I would question my own capabilities where, can I do that too? What is the sacrifice needed to do what they do, but firstly, am I intelligent enough to be interviewed and actually being hired, before that, can I even secure myself an interview with them. Only a handful of management consultants that I see stays more than 3 years. Most of them I see, would only stay for a year of 2 before jumping to another organisation. I have spoken to these candidates and some would say the culture, nothing bad, just that there is no sense of togetherness because everyone works on different projects. You may be batch mates, but you barely keep in touch with each other because of the different projects that you're placed in. Some candidates thrives in these environment. Some, may not love it but e...

Only the previous post where I spoke and asked some existential questions on why I am not proactive and driven to drive the products that we can launch anytime with the right brand name and packaging cause we have the products ready, just needed some work on some ground works to get things started. All of a sudden today, sort of out of nowhere that my sister asked if she can bring in her friend to help with the ground works i.e., brand logo and label designs including social media posts designs which I think is my weak point cause I have no idea , no background in designing and obviously I need a huge help in this area. Also cause my sister is a student and designing is a passion project, not a module that she has taken or taking in university, hence the speed with the designs and perhaps coming up with the concept and theme may not be on the right track cause obviously none of us has any background in marketing and advertising right.  Now, she has brought in her friend that is loo...

 Wow, it has been a long time since I have blogged! And just the other day that my BF has asked me or reminded me in a way that I have not been blogging. Yes, indeed I have not and I kinda miss it. How everything now is so visual and digitise and our social media is all about pictures and videos that we don't spend much time reading anymore, at least not online. Perhaps not everyone but it's definitely me. I have been spending so much time in a day scrolling instagram, looking at what? Just to get updated I guess. I know there's nothing important there but somehow, it's a habit know. I think the fact that I acknowledge it is a bad habit and being aware of it, means I do have a certain level of mindfulness there to want to control and to limit the social media usage which I really should.  I have been working and then ended my day with some YouTube videos. After watching 1/2 videos, I got bored of it and this annoying constant thought in me saying these people document t...

Year 2020 so far has not been treating us that well with the pandemic going on and Malaysia has announced Movement Control Order (MCO) since 18th March. That would mean, we have been working from home for 2 months now. I am going back to office next week, only for a week then 2 weeks working from home. Slowly transitioning back to office. We all know that things are not going to be normal anymore. The normal now is to wear mask wherever we go, always and always sanitise our hands, to always get our temperature checked before entering a store and to always record wherever we go. Seems like this is the best time for the government to track our movements and all the citizens voluntarily does it without any questions asked. Of course, there has been several ups and downs with my role being a headhunter, where there were hiring freeze where it directly impacted one of my candidates where his offer was being retracted. But there are still hirings for the urgent roles out there. Obviously t...

So for the past weekend, my BF and I decided to spend our 3rd year anniversary there as we liked our first Perhentian vacation last year. Last year, we went to Perhentian Kecil and we liked the snorkelling session that we had at Turtle Point, Shark Point, romantic beach and we even tried diving for the first time in our lives! but too bad, we didn't like that diving as our ears were hurting quite a bit and we were feeling a little paranoid at the possibility of our eardrum being damaged from diving. lol. Anyhow, at the end of the trip, we have come to 3 conclusions: 1st - we can't do sea diving, as we became paranoid af after. 2nd- we still prefer plain old snorkelling, watching colourful fishes and corals and 3rd - we want to go back Perhentian, every year if possible. Hence, this year, we've decided to go Perhentian Besar this time for the 2nd and 3rd. Yes, we did snorkel but this time we went Pulau Rawa, Tokong Burung, Lighthouse. Well, the reason why we chose these fe...

It is now my break time. I think I have been quite busy doing this and that for many weekends now and today, finally, I am having some me time. BF is out with his basketball match which is a first one that I am not attending. well, because one, it's outdoors and two, there are no seats for viewers. I don't really know basketball but after have attended a few, I am slowly getting it. Though some movements are too fast to catch like why the referee called a foul or some of them gets a free throw. wow, I actually understand a little now about basketball games haha. Other than that, I am finally deciding to commit full time to yoga. I was going to and fro with that idea for a few months now and I think it is time for me to commit to it. I think I finally made that decision when I had a long chat with the yoga teacher. She is truly passionate about yoga. She cares about the alignments and proper teachings of yoga, unlike many Insta-famous studios where many only does beginners...

Hello hello. It has been a long while, again, since I have sat down to write down my thoughts. Let me share a little of a recruiter's life. Just a little background of myself, I've started my career in investment banking for 2 years then moved to being a recruiter. From a desk bound role to a people management role. Not easy. I've rode many emotional roller coaster where I could be super excited for something, then hit by a bad news. I have learned many, many life lessons from being a recruiter. It is not as easy as it seems. We are not just the connecter of clients to candidates and otherwise. We do more than that. We manage people's expectations, we consult, we advise on market trends and movements, we ought to know what's out there, what are the current demanding jobs there are across the industry. Again, we are not just the person to view CVs and send to clients. We filter, we assess the candidates from the body language and at the same time understanding their ...

Hey there! Again, i have not been posting consistently here since my last post. I think it is time to sort of commit myself to do so, at least a post a week. What do you think? Alrighty, something to share this week is all about self care! I have been watching quite a number of youtube videos ranging from self care, to slow living to mukbangs (in the middle of the night, hated myself for that) and to productivity. I was pretty inspired to practice self care by slow living. what slow living means is that, every single day, I will be focusing on different things. Will share the link here so you can have a look and perhaps have a try yourself! https://www.pickuplimes.com/single-post/2019/01/28/7-DAYS-OF-SLOW-LIVING-»-printable-guide I was thinking of printing the sheets but in the end, I opted to write them down in bullet journal kind of way. I have to admit, I almost gave up in the middle. I seriously don't have the patience to draw lines in the bullet journal to make all lo...

how time flies. 1 more month, actually 3 more weeks till I hit 25. I may be having quarter life crisis!! Many things have changed last year. Dealt with a lot of emotional roller coaster which was insane I must say! Loads of ups and downs, so much more as compared to last year (2017). I mean, people grow and so fast I have moved on to a new role in my life. And this current role, I deal with so many people, day in day out. Clients, candidates. I think you'll sort of get what I am currently doing right? Being a recruitment consultant is not just taking CVs and send to clients. You're absolutely wrong. We deal with people. People are the most complex creatures. As much as many is driven by financial reward, many too is not and that's when us, consultants come in. We are paid to handle situations, to deal with emotions, to dig as much as we can from another human who may not be willing to share, who may be cold af. How do you deal with those kind of situations? Not something ...

I have been fearing for my life of what is going to happen with me in the next few years. Where am I going to be? What am I going to have? What am I going to do? So many thoughts have been lingering in my mind past these few months and I have been sort of living in fear, at least subconsciously. Yes, I do enjoy my life when I was travelling to places with my bf. But you know that at the back of your head, you are fearing of something. Something that you can’t just say it outright. It eats you. It ate me. I was unhappy for a few months, because I don’t know what am I going to do. The uncertainties killed me or still killing me. At least I am slowly recovering from the pain, doubts, confusion. It was a bad wound. One thing that I have stopped doing when I was having those thoughts was working out and dance. I was always active with exercising and dance. I don’t know which affected which. Was it because of me stopped working out that affected my brain from producing the serotonin which ...

Hi all, It has been a long while since I have written something here. Actually it has been a long while since I've written my thoughts out. I have been having a lot of thoughts in my mind a few months now, and I think that's the reason for all the pimples popping up on my forehead, sigh. Putting that aside, I have been unhappy these few months. Mostly because of worrying the uncertain future that I am going to face. I have no idea why am I so concern of the future and etc. Because of the uncertainties, I have been stressing myself out. Giving myself unwanted worries. I have finally, or slowly taking baby steps. Meaning, I want to live in the moment where, I am only going to think of what I want to do this week and probably next week. Just want to start fresh instead of worrying so much on my future like omg, how many babies I am getting or whatever or if I cannot conceive when I want to have my own kids so bad. Okay, those are seriously unwanted stress! See? I think of all ...

Today is the day of chill. No plans for the day, a day to go with the flow. I thought about this a few days ago where, what is your meaning of success? Many wants to retire by so and so age. My question is why? what are you going to do next? What are you going to do in you're retirement? My mom retired from the workforce as early as in her 30s, after she gave birth to my youngest sister which is when she was 32? She retired in the age of 32. Many would kill to be in her position but being her daughter and from what she has shared with me made me not wanting to retire. I want to take a break here and there but not retire from the workforce completely. My definition of being successful in career wise is to work because I want to not because I need to. I want to continue contributing to the society no matter how old I am- as long as I can contribute, I will. Be it charity, talks or whatever channel to share my experience. That's why I really admire Tun M. Being the oldest PM i...

OK guys, podcasting is not as easy I thought it would be.. Well, technically you just need content, voice, software to record and edit. Well, I have the first and stuck at the second and third. Reason being, my voice was too soft! I thought the mic would help. Nope. Means, I have to speak at my usual pitch and volume. Lol. All these means, I have to record again which could be tomorrow since tomorrow would be pretty free.. I hope I won't be stuck at the polling station for tooo long. So there's that, the update on my podcast. Next, on my life update. It has been a pretty shitty weeks and this week seemingly getting better. First of all, I had breakout. have no idea why.. still trying to figure out. First suspect could be the product change. Girls out there, once you have found your holy grail that has been keeping your clear face, STICK TO IT! Obviously I didn't and was trying to "step out of my comfort zone" shizz that got my face upset. I'm truly sorry fac...

Hey there! I was watching one of my favourite youtuber's lastest video on her solo trip to Phuket and man, I am changing my mind of not travelling solo. It's so , so cool! Like, she spent on the hotel she stayed in, she got the room with private pool and she only visited 2 places on the entire trip. I think her purpose of this trip is to rejuvenate her mind and soul, hence, not so much on visiting places. Just mainly on being with self and just, recharge from the surrounding. Absorb the energy from the sea and trees. Because of this video, i have decided that you know what, i want to do that too. Probably next year because this year, i'll be travelling to many places. It is quite a few for me already. Closest trip now is Perhentian which i am really, really excited for! Then in July would be Bangkok for company's trip. And lastly Shanghai in September! I am really excited for that too cause i'll be visiting my best friend, Bella. Man, i miss her so much! We just...

Hello! I am going to start a new project which is podcasting! I have been dreaming to do that for a long time and one day i decided to go on Lazada to check out how much does a recording microphone cost. Guess how much is it? It is only RM 33 with free shipping! I only need a recording mic, phone/laptop and content. That's all to start my podcast! I have been thinking of the title for the podcast, not sure what is it still yet though.. The content of the podcast would be motivational content, favourite books to share and review on it, what i like and don't like about the book. This is just some ideas that i have for the podcast and we shall see how this goes. Excited bout it as it is pretty similar to blogging, just this time with my voice. I think podcasting can polish my speech skills where i want to avoid using ''fillers''. For example, like, you know, umm, and etc. I think this can be a good practice to swallow these fillers and avoid repeating the same ...

I almost ditched this blog to start a new one. I created one on wix.com but it didn't feel the same. I still like this, vanilla blogging. Nothing extra, just a place for me to write, vent and rant. Hence, i've decided to come back here to start again. I realised that i haven't been writing for a long time and i miss it. I miss the feeling after writing, the sound of the keys when pressed, so therapeutic. I just love it. The feeling of posting here and on the other website is so , so different. I really do prefer here than the new one. Tho i put quite a measurable effort on designing the website, you know what, this blog values more than that. This blog has all the posts since, many many years ago. Believe it or not, this blog is now, approximately, 6 years, if i'm not mistaken. Since i've started college. I can't even remember when did i start college. lol. Anyways, good to be back. Good to be back. My life so far.. Not too bad tbh. Am working to make it b...

I am going to be officially 24 in a week! I can't believe how time passes by so fast! *written a week before Feb* It was just last week when my colleague asked how old am i, i answered, going to be 24 soon. She said, 24? You can get married and have kids already! Then i said, that's still a long way to go, but when i think about it, it's actually not too far.. There's so much to achieve before i want to get married. I have expectations to achieve before being married and have kids.. Not to say i can't achieve what i want with a family, it's just before getting tied down with getting pregnant and having kids and taking care of them, i want to be at least financially stable first where i don't have to worry about financials and just focus on taking care of my kids- maybe even, be a full time, stay at home mom. Just maybe, provided my husband can afford it of course. It seems like i am giving myself a lot of expectations that i gives me stress that i have t...

4 more days into 2018. Had loads of ups and downs this year, 2017. 2017 has taught me a lot of great things. 1. Be grateful for your family  I have personally witnessed the pain when someone you love so dearly left you. It woke me up right away that we always take our family members for granted and always assume that they will be with us forever. Well, technically not really. 2. Things can happen unexpectedly This I would like to dedicate to the piece of article that got selected to be published on the Leaderonomics website and the Star newspaper. It was seriously crazy. Never would I have thought that the article that I wrote in just a few hours' time , amended only twice can actually get selected to be published. I was seriously lucky. 3. Be good to your body and mind  What I have been doing pretty consistent for the past few months is the food that I put in my body and working out. Exercise helps to clear my head from all the work stress and etc. I always feel e...

Hello, it has been a long while since i've posted something here. I have been writing in writing in my journal lately but am not consistent with it because writing with a pen takes much more time and energy. Sometimes, my pen and my thoughts couldn't be aligned because i think much faster than i could write. Hence why, i have decided to restart my blog again. I almost wanted to delete this blog and start a new one but something stopped me. My previous posts stopped me because they are my babies and i can't just wipe them off and have a brand new start. Life isn't like that. We are who we are now because of our experiences. My blog wouldn't be the same without my previous motivational posts. I want to continue writing motivational posts for various reasons. Well, at least the first one is to keep myself motivated and second, i want to spread positivity. Writing helps me a lot more than i know. Most of my posts were written when i was emotionally unwell. I find writin...

Been pretty down lately because we have lost a close friend. Lost her. Not going down to the sappy sad story cause it is not mine to tell. I felt the effect, much more than I have expected to be. I am strong on some days but some days, I got so affected that I really need some positivity in my life to bring me back up. Work is not helping. I don't know what else to be honest.. So much has happened and still happening. I don't know how to feel. Not feeling like disappearing anymore after I have told everything stored deep down in my heart to my boyfriend. Now I am just solely affected by what has happened very recently. It was sad, angry, frustrated and everything negative. sigh. I don't really know how to get over this. Don't think I can though. I want to start something new. But what is? Don't think this is a right time to do so yet. I need to be more supportive. I need to be stronger. But sometimes, we have our limits right? sigh. I think I just need som...