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Hello, it has been a long while since I have blogged. Actually I did continue blogging , just never posted it here for the public to see. Things have happened, ups and downs and so far, I am glad that I encountered and solved and became stronger. I performed for SWAG 5.0 and having the swag withdrawals. I sort of miss going back to Semenyih to hang out with the juniors and practice dancing. Though going there takes an hour and steals my weekends but now, I would say, it was well spent. From seeing the fellow alumni every weekend to not seeing them anymore until.. I am not sure when, is pretty sad. I have the reluctance in me in letting this go but I have to move on. We have to move on to our lives and be adults, at least try to be. I will be visiting the juniors for the next SWAG. Probably not performing anymore but most definitely will be back to visit them :) I feel like I have a lot to say here but I can't write them out. I don't know how to phrase it, to put it in wor...

It has been awhile since I felt like writing something. When I started working, I have been really cherishing my weekends. I just want to laze at home which I'm not sure if it should be like that. I think I am like this now cause my boyfriend(CW) is all the way in the US and I am here, being lazy to drive to anywhere. LOL. Talk about dependency right? My housemate had a house party at his gf's place last night and I skipped it cause I just wanted to stay at home and watch modern family. Yup. I am old. Or more of like, maybe it's CW not being around and I just don't want to drive home after drinking in the middle of the night. Yes, I do miss him a lot. I want him to come back earlier but he's probably not going anywhere after this, so...persevere! I know I can do this but don't know why this is feeling extraordinarily harder than  I expected it to be. This morning I went to a centre where they teaches the autism kids to make organic teas called seventeaone. ...

23rd. I am 23 now! How times flies right. I am a working adult now. Working in the company that I wanted to enter, in the field that I want to be in. What more can I ask for. Today, so many wished me and some in particular are the ones that reminded me how lucky I am to be surrounded with such good hearted human beings whom I call my besties. Though we don't talk everyday, but we still keep each other updated here and there which is more than I can ever ask for. I am also blessed to have a partner that understands me, kind hearted and a very, very smart person. He managed to get flowers delivered to my house on my birthday! and he's all the way in the US right now. The effort that counts and I am deeply touched. Not only that, my bestie, got me something that I have always, always wanted. A vinyl record player. My heart dropped to the ground when I get to know that he's getting me that for my birthday. I can't even. That's too much. Last but not least, my ...

Being a millennial, not just millennials actually. Living in this connected era, everything becomes so much faster. Time seems like its flying by. All information is just at your finger tips. Literally. All these made us becoming more and more impatient. We want things, now. We want to this, now. We want that, now. Everything, now! It's crazy. It's making me crazy! Well, i have pretty much to relate to this and one day i realised that, i need to slow down. Slow.the.heck.down. I am only 22. Well, not for long now but oh well. Why am i rushing into things? Just stepped in to a new chapter in life-working life. And when i first started, my first day of work, i thought of why am i not in this and that department where i can grow faster and learn much more. That was just the first freaking day! Like, come on woman. Chill , dang it. After the first day, i had a breakdown cause initially i wanted to enter another department so badly because that was what i always, always want...

When given lemon, make lemonade. 

Do you have songs that make you reminisce of some particular memories you had with someone?  While listening to random songs on Youtube and particular song came up and reminded me of the memories I had. It was weird because I thought I am already over it but it seems like i haven't.  Well, I guess some memories just stick like glue?  Songs are powerful. It speaks your mind and soul. I would say, I could feel the exact feelings I had when i first heard that song! Crazy, really.  There's nothing much I am going to update bout my life right now because let's just wait for bit more.  heh.  Grateful and blessed. mun

Recently, I have gone through pretty lot in my mind. So many confusions, so many almost-making-stupid-compromises. One hell of a roller coaster ride. After listening to what people around me has gone through, really struck me that I am lucky to have something that other people might not have, positivity. To be honest, I don't have that all the damn time, but I do make sure that the negativity will only stay for a day, that's the time limit I always give myself. Doing this really has kept me afloat, still keeping me afloat. Things are tough, but, good things go to people who wait. I need to consume this, digest this. You know when you are only hearing things, not actually listening to it. I have been hearing that quote a lot. I know the importance of it but now, i need to believe it, because believing something, really could turn things around. No one can ever put themselves in your shoes and neither do you. What you can start doing is, wear your goddamn shoes and wear it with...