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Been pretty down lately because we have lost a close friend. Lost her. Not going down to the sappy sad story cause it is not mine to tell. I felt the effect, much more than I have expected to be. I am strong on some days but some days, I got so affected that I really need some positivity in my life to bring me back up. Work is not helping. I don't know what else to be honest.. So much has happened and still happening. I don't know how to feel. Not feeling like disappearing anymore after I have told everything stored deep down in my heart to my boyfriend. Now I am just solely affected by what has happened very recently. It was sad, angry, frustrated and everything negative. sigh. I don't really know how to get over this. Don't think I can though. I want to start something new. But what is? Don't think this is a right time to do so yet. I need to be more supportive. I need to be stronger. But sometimes, we have our limits right? sigh. I think I just need som...

Hello! I attended EY's toastmasters club just now. It's funny on like why did I join toastmasters so sudden? Well, I didn't join the club. I was there as a guest as I was invited there by my bf's cousin and he was giving a speech, so why not attend to support. I was given an opportunity to speak on an impromptu speech. Firstly, I couldn't connect to the topic given. Secondly, I didn't take my time to structure my speech. Third and lastly, I think my speech was a flop even though they commented that I was a natural but I still think it wasn't good, at least not to my par. Yes, I admit I have very high standards that sometimes I could be very hard on myself. After everything has ended, it has taught me a few things, more of like made me realised of a few things. Firstly, made me realise that I have a well versed bf. I like how he structured his speech in such a short time and how he could connect to the audience. Almost everyone liked his speech includin...

Hello all, Long time no post. *insert dark moon emoji* It has been a long while since i've posted my published work on Leaderonomics. Not feeling overly inspired to write these few days. Been focusing a lot on myself. Mainly my lifestyle like, been starting to gym again after stopping for so long. Yes, my body aches almost everyday for the past 2 weeks already but I'm liking this discipline and motivation to keep going. It's even better when there's someone that goes to the gym with you, i.e., my little sister and/or my boyf. It's really fun. I did tons of squat sets yesterday and i really love it. The gym last night was packed but it was a good motivation as well seeing everyone doing their routines instead of sitting down and start chatting. They were legit. It was seriously motivating and i love it. Been attending Kungfu class for the pass 2 months and i'm not feeling it anymore. Mainly , maybe because of the sifu where he doesn't really teach and...

Hello! Guess what, my article got published on Leaderonomics! I have been following their segment on BFM without missing one. So one day I decided to write something and edit it a little then send over to them. After for so many weeks, I thought, maybe my article is not selected. Suddenly this afternoon, got an email saying my article has been published! I was legit over the moon. This is my first time being featured in an online website! I was really happy that I have the slightest opportunity to share what I believe. So, until now I have not mention about the topic. I think you should have a look at the link below. It's truly worth it- I can assure you that! I am still over the moon right now! I can't believe that my article got selected to be published. Man, this is huge for me. Now, I am feeling pretty inspired to write a new topic and send it to them. Who knows, it might get published too. hehe. No expectations. My objective is just to share my view on topics I bel...

After reading so many posts on Quora, it made me realise something. Many of the wealthy men on the planet are all humble, down-to-earth people. Those who are truly rich would never throw money at anyone’s face. Right? Not only that they are rich in their pockets, they are rich inside. Rich with knowledge. They know what they want and they know the value of things. The reason why they can stay rich is because they have the knowledge of maintaining their wealth by investing on books, skills, stocks and true friends. Books will open your eyes to things you have not known before. Skills will propel you further in your career as you are damn good at what you do. Stock, well, make your money work hard for you with your knowledge in the stocks you buy. True friends will stick to you in your ups and downs. No man, in my opinion can live alone. You need companions. Don’t need a bunch, just a few is more than enough. All in all, now we are young, we can live on basics. Basic food and cl...

Hello, it has been a long while since I have blogged. Actually I did continue blogging , just never posted it here for the public to see. Things have happened, ups and downs and so far, I am glad that I encountered and solved and became stronger. I performed for SWAG 5.0 and having the swag withdrawals. I sort of miss going back to Semenyih to hang out with the juniors and practice dancing. Though going there takes an hour and steals my weekends but now, I would say, it was well spent. From seeing the fellow alumni every weekend to not seeing them anymore until.. I am not sure when, is pretty sad. I have the reluctance in me in letting this go but I have to move on. We have to move on to our lives and be adults, at least try to be. I will be visiting the juniors for the next SWAG. Probably not performing anymore but most definitely will be back to visit them :) I feel like I have a lot to say here but I can't write them out. I don't know how to phrase it, to put it in wor...

It has been awhile since I felt like writing something. When I started working, I have been really cherishing my weekends. I just want to laze at home which I'm not sure if it should be like that. I think I am like this now cause my boyfriend(CW) is all the way in the US and I am here, being lazy to drive to anywhere. LOL. Talk about dependency right? My housemate had a house party at his gf's place last night and I skipped it cause I just wanted to stay at home and watch modern family. Yup. I am old. Or more of like, maybe it's CW not being around and I just don't want to drive home after drinking in the middle of the night. Yes, I do miss him a lot. I want him to come back earlier but he's probably not going anywhere after this, so...persevere! I know I can do this but don't know why this is feeling extraordinarily harder than  I expected it to be. This morning I went to a centre where they teaches the autism kids to make organic teas called seventeaone. ...