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It is normal to feel good, feel as if you are on top of the world. And, it is normal to feel down, feel so worthless, as if you are not worthy of anything at all. Been feeling like that lately. I felt the ups and downs so quickly that sometimes i got confused on what am i exactly feeling. Really weird i know. The instability is killing me slowly. Seriously. Not feeling motivated to do anything, besides the weekends - that's the only thing I always look forward to cause that's the only time we get to see each other. This feelings i have for him is intense. I really am speechless. How can i feel so much in such a short time. I have no idea. So many people around me, my mom, my sibling, my close friend asked me how long have we been together and i said, only 1 month plus....? and they were like WHAT. I thought you guys have been together since forever! I was like.. nope. And what does that supposed to mean?! I like our type of hang outs. We just chill at home, hang out with fa...

When things don't turn out as how you planned, it is time to change your plans. There are always a better alternative. We should not, must not think that once one plan is not going smooth, that's the end of the world. No. I am a firm believer that though what you planned now is not going as what you've expected, I am sure there's a better out there for you. There's always a better alternative when you believe it. Believe.  I believe I can, I definitely can. Things don't look as what I've planned. I was feeling a little lost for a bit and decided to Google for a bit and I found something that may lead me to what I want in the future. Why didn't I see that earlier? Could've done it earlier on. But anyhow, it is never too late. Let's just see where is my fate leading me to. Patience.  Good things come to those who are patient. Definitely agree to that. I may seem that i don't care but i do. I really do deep inside. I can't...

It has been quite awhile since I've posted my last post. Hasn't been consistent in posting something up cause wasn't feeling something extra besides something I am going to talk about later. But anyways, yeah, wasn't feeling extra much after graduation. I definitely do miss the student life, staying with a bunch of great housemates, have our weekly hangouts and stuff. But now, it is different already. We don't see each other that frequent anymore which seriously saddens me. Everyone has their own things to do and it is pretty hard to find a time to gather everyone together. Well, we did hang out after graduation which was 2 weeks ago and yesterday night. Went to Raj's restaurant to try out the fish and chips. Not bad i would say, but the waiting time is a wee too long. I like our hangouts. Though we didn't talk as much cause the group is huge and when there's so many of us, the group will tend to get separated. Get what i mean? haha. Well, have to deal...